Tuesday, June 2, 2015

My Mami has Dementia



My Mami has Dementia 

My mami has dementia
she’ll never be the same again
she’s happy when she’s having fun
and always wins at games

She lives in/for the present moment 
and is not aware of time
obsesses on what she wants to do
and always wants her way

She makes up stories and believes them
will not admit she’s wrong
never wants to say, I’m sorry
throws a tantrum to express her way

Possessive, she won’t share her things
not trusting, she won’t accept the new
forgets when she hurts others feelings
believes herself and not what others say

She wants to keep her independence
and won’t admit her needs
not want to bathe or brush her teeth
will wear the same clothes every day

She hides her stuff and then denies it
fears people will take her things
she is afraid that we will leave her
that one day she will lose her way

No matter how my mami is  
she’s loved me all my years
I'll always do my best for her
like she always did for me 

50 years ago!

I wrote this while spending a week taking care of my mother.  She's had dementia for some years but still lives in her own house.

Read this other post I wrote about how we took away her car at 90 years old!! http://filledwithretirement.blogspot.com/2013/05/90-and-with-dementia-means-no-more_8.html




Sunday, February 1, 2015

2014 You won't believe what happened to me!

My year Reflection 2014

2014 has come and gone. 
It went so fast, and yet so slow
with three surgeries on my bones. 


The hip replacement was my choice because of all the pain
But both my wrists! I did not want, how silly that I fell. 

Some scary time recovery is, because there's no control.  
Tired, frustrated, and disabled, it's normalcy I miss. 

I read more books this year than ever, with so much time to spare.  
Some helped me grow in health and spirit 
and some were just to cheer me. 
Because I could not hold a book my audiobooks were many. 
 I'd fall asleep with earbuds on, the timer set for thirty. 

I tried to think no scary thoughts, I could not use my hands.  
And now I’m thankful and rejoice to brush my teeth, and use my pens.

The nurse and cook this year was Don, 
he missed his fishing with all the chores.  
Supporter and encourager, he helped me, loving me and more!

And now, I pray for health and fun, 
with blessings and graces as this year comes. 
No doctor’s visits please, for me or Don and all of mine. 

There's more to share and do and care, 
we thank you God for a year of prayer!



Sunday, May 25, 2014

Saving Sand dollars and Horseshoe crabs

This Spring we spent some time at our condo on the beach at St. Simons Island.


We found one!
I took pictures of how to find sand dollars and olive shells buried under the sand so that you can find time the next time you go. 

This is the track the the olive shell leaves on the sand.  The olive is a very shinny shell and very beautiful!





 Here is the sand dollar track on the sand.  Always throw them back in!



washing the sand dollar enjoy it and then throw it back in!
digging the sand dollar
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I thought this was 2 conchs in the sand, instead found a horseshoe crab buried in the sand.



That day was a treasure for discoveries!  We found 8 other horseshoe crabs on a sandbar and we thought they would die in the sun so we dug them up and carried them to the water.











We also found 1/4 of a leatherback turtle washed up on the sand that was obviously hit by a boat.  It was so sad.  We called the DNR and they came and took it for research.


Every time we go to St. Simons is a wonderful time!  
When we have good weather!

Does your child love going underwater?

We are all getting ready for a fun Summer and swimming is a big part of it.

I made this video last year about my grandchildren as we swam underwater together. 


I was a swimming teacher for so long - I guess a swimming teacher is always a swimming teacher.  I am so passionate that when I am in any pool, I try to teach any child that is around me.  Some parents let me, some give me dirty looks.  My daughters always ask those parents to forgive me because I can't help myself!

This weekend, my (just) 4 year old granddaughter in the video who has been going to the pool with me all winter and did fine yesterday, swallowed some water at her other grandparent's pool.  My daughter called me in a panic because now she won't even go back in the water.   Well, I'm not there and they said that they tried all the games that we've done before.  I even talked with her on facetime and she sadly looked at me and said "I don't know" when I asked her why she didn't want to swim.  It's hard when they swallow water.  

I remember my dad throwing me in the pool when I was 4...

What do you think???

It's not easy to do it yourself because you think that you might hurt your child or if you do it wrong your child will never like the water - but it's worth the risk! YOU can benefit from the wonderful experiences in the water and you are teaching your child a life skill.

Here is a more recent video of my newest grandson, 5 month Parker, learning to enjoy underwater.


Saturday, December 28, 2013

What about the "doer" who is retired?


As I reflect on my goals and achievements being retired, I see that I can’t evaluate my life the in the same way.  Now my goals are not so much in the doing, but in the fun of living and being there for those I love.  It is in our health and our energy and desire to continue on this path.  What is this path?  It involves freedom and relaxation, but of a different kind.  Freedom always meant to me that I could do what I wanted, now I also want a freedom to do what others want of me, some of the time anyway.  I still need a freedom to be who and what I want to be and to become.  I see that I continue to change and become in ways that I never saw for me.  Well, that is not so different from what everyone else wants...


What about relaxation?  By this, I mean, relaxation from stress and conflict.  But, isn’t that also what most people want?  I used to embrace stress and used it to accomplish more.  Now, I hide from stress and get grouchy, when it interferes with my plans.  Before, I used to think of relaxation as the time that I would sit and do nothing - like on the beach or to read a book in the middle of the day.  Now, I want to do everything relaxed - not hurry - or with a deadline.  I used to like the pressure of having to do too much.  Now I’m finally learning that I can relax in my half-finished projects because I don’t have to put a deadline on them and can just let them sit there “para maƱana."  But it's not easy; a part of me still craves to work on them and to be able to finish any one of them now!  I think Yoga has helped me with this because at these times I catch myself breathing deeply :) 

Now, living a RELAXED, STRESS-FREE LIFE does not mean I want to live a SLOW LIFE.  I want my days to be full and busy, I feel lost if I am not focused, or if I just wait to see what the day will bring.  I have always been a doer and want my life to flow.  Maybe I haven’t changed so much, only now that I am retired, I am able to do more, yet not everything - because I know that “everything" will never get done.  I don’t know if that is the same for everyone, it’s not something that people talk about.  Do others have these same conflicts?  

I never did write New Year's Resolutions for 2014…  because that was always just one more thing to plan for and do, so even in April, I say, NOT YET!

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

My new grandson and Baby Jesus



When I hold my new grandson, Parker, I think of baby Jesus and think they must have been very much alike.  
     Parker gets these intense looks; when he smiles with his eyes closed I just know he is having heavenly thoughts.  He doesn’t just smile with his mouth, even his skin gets soft. 
          Then suddenly, his whole face frowns, or he gets the lower lip and I think that he already knows that not all of life is going to be flowers and blue sky.  
                 When he opens his eyes and looks at me, it’s like he sees right through me, his face lights up and I feel love and love him right back.  

I wonder at his “specialness,” but aren’t all babies special?  I’m sure that Jesus had this same glow, or did he have more?  How special was baby Jesus?  I sure would love to know.


Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Bella's Fish - Dead or Alive?

I am so excited to share with you my new imovie!  Take one minute to laugh while you watch Bella playing with a dead fish on the beach!  Funny!    
Please share it with your friends...

Hilarious video of my one year old grandchild, Bella, playing with a fish in a tidal pool on St. Simons Island.  

She tries to pick it up and carry it, putting her finger in her mouth.  

My grandson caught the fish and we put it in the water.  I could not believe it when she tried to pick it up.  So glad that I had my ipad with me.  I took 25 minutes of video used the best of it.  I have an extended version.  Email me if you want the link to that one.

 Look for more videos at youtube.com/SwimWithMissBea  




Funny things happen on vacation?  


Be sure that you let me know how you like it!